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We all have them.
Even the most confident people have one thing or another they wish they could change about themselves. For some people, it’s their freckles, their hair, their height, or maybe even their weight.
But for me? I hated the bump in my nose.
I’m not exactly sure when the bump in my nose started to rear its ugly head, but I remember being very aware of it during my sophomore year of high school.
Most people claimed they couldn’t see it, or they’d say that never noticed it until I pointed it out. I felt they were just being polite, condescending even. I always thought people were looking at my nose, and I became extremely self-conscious. This insecurity was reinforced when I was chatting with a fellow passenger on a flight, and he casually asked me if I’d ever broken my nose. SO. Embarrassed. Also, who the hell asks somebody that question?!
On the spectrum of jacked up noses, I’m not even close to Owen Wilson levels, but still… I wasn’t a fan of my nose.
BE OUR GUEST
Back in 2005, I was a senior in college, and The Tyra Banks Show was a relatively new and popular daytime talk show. I’d gotten into the habit of watching the show in the afternoons after my classes were over. One bored evening at home I was screwing around on the internet and browsed over to the show’s website to see the topics of upcoming shows.
On the sidebar, I noticed an image that said: “Be Our Guest!” Curiosity struck, and I clicked through.
I couldn’t believe what I saw next.
In big, bold letters it read, “Do you have a bump in your nose that you hate, but don’t want to have surgery?”
Yes! This is me!
Even though I hated the bump in my nose, I knew that I was far too chicken to ever get a nose job.
Reading further, it said they were looking for someone who was willing to have a “non-surgical nose job” on the show.
A non-surgical nose job? Hmmm…I was intrigued.
I’m the ultimate wimp when it comes to needles, but I figured it’s less invasive than surgery and was willing to find out more.
I submitted my information without much thought. What were the odds I’d ever hear from them? Probably slim to none.
My eyelids were getting heavy, so I shuffled downstairs to take a nap, leaving my phone upstairs on the kitchen table. At some point during my nap, I heard my cell phone ring. Figuring it was one of my friends, I rolled over and went right back to sleep. I’d check it later.
About 30 minutes later I woke up and went back upstairs to check my phone. An unknown number was in my missed call log along with a voicemail message.
I listened to the voicemail, and to my complete and utter surprise, it was a voicemail from a producer from The Tyra Banks Show stating that she had received my submission on their website and wanted to know if we could talk.
I literally submitted the information less than 2 hours prior and they’d already called me back. Talk about fast service!
My heart was racing and I needed to catch my breath before I worked up the nerve the return her call. Once I regained my composure, I called her back with an outwardly appearing calm demeanor. (Inside I was still freaking out hardcore.)
During our conversation, she told me they were looking for someone who was self-conscious about having a bump in their nose. They were going to be showcasing a new procedure called a non-surgical nose job pioneered by plastic surgeon to the stars, Dr. Alexander Rivkin of Westside Aesthetics.
Once I expressed interest in trying out this new procedure, the producer asked me to submit a picture of myself that showed the bump. I knew just the picture to use because it was one that I hated, ha!
The producer called me back several moments later, told me I would be perfect for the show and asked if I could come out to LA on Friday, which was only 36 hours away. Being that I was a full-time college student and skipping class wasn’t exactly a foreign idea, I confirmed that I could be there.
Within the hour, my airfare was booked, and I was more excited than ever to start the experience, despite being terrified of whatever they were going to do to my nose.
LA LA LAND
After arriving in Los Angeles, a black Suburban waited in the pickup area, ready to whisk me away to Dr. Rivkin’s office so we could meet prior to taping and go over the procedure. Dr. Rivkin was down to earth and did a thorough job of explaining what to expect during the procedure. It wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought.
By the time I’d left his office, I finally felt calmer than I had the previous 24 hours.
After leaving the doctor’s office, I hopped back into the black suburban where I was then dropped off at my hotel on Rodeo Drive in Beverly Hills.
Wow, this was the life!
I was told to be ready in the morning where I would be picked up by a driver and whisked to the CBS Studios. That entire night I was a ball of nerves.
THE NEXT MORNING
Once I was dropped off at the CBS Studios, I was put in a room with other guests who were also going to be on the show. We all mingled, introduced ourselves, and talked about how we ended up on the show.
Since the show was all about common body image complaints, our issues were varied: One guest didn’t like her small chest, another didn’t like her weight, and another lady was self-conscious about her stretch marks. There were a few more guests as well, but it’s been 12 years and I can’t remember all of our issues, ha.
Pretty soon it was time for wardrobe, hair, and makeup.
One of the show’s stylist brought me into a private dressing room with a small heap of clothes laid out on a table. As the stylist and I chose what to wear, I noticed that the majority of the items still had their tags attached. Instead of removing the tags, he simply tucked them out of sight. Always inquisitive, I asked why he didn’t just cut off the tags and he responded that the production company often returns the clothes after filming. I know nothing about the fashion industry to know if this is common practice but I thought it was strange since I assumed they had a large budget for clothing…especially since they put me up in a hotel room on Rodeo Drive.
After being styled, I got my hair and makeup done. The entire time they were curling my hair, I stared into the mirror. I just couldn’t believe that only 36 hours before I was at home in Kansas City with no plans to be in LA. Now there I was in California about to appear on a TV show.
Life is so unpredictable.
Before I knew it, the audience members had arrived and taken their seats. At this point, I still hadn’t met Tyra, which I assumed was a standard process for appearing guests.
I wasn’t still 100% sure how the show was going to play out. The only direction I’d received from the producer was that they were going to put me in the audience and when Tyra asks the audience about a question about who all has something they’d like to change about their body, I should raise my hand.
That was it. Easy enough, but I was still nervous.
I took my aisle seat in the audience and taping began shortly after.
Just as planned, Tyra began the segment by asking the audience members, “Is there anyone here who has something that they don’t like about themselves? If so, raise your hand.”
I raised my hand as prompted by the producer. Tyra looked at me and walked over.
Oh shoot, here goes nothing.
With her upbeat on-air personality, Tyra asked me what specifically I wanted to change about myself. I went on to explain the bump in my nose and how I was very self-conscious of it.
Sidenote: I was starstruck. This woman was beautiful and she was so. damn. tall! I’m quite sure I sounded like a blubbering idiot.
Back to the story…
Tyra then invited me on stage to talk about it further. As I was walking down the steps toward the stage I just remember thinking to myself please don’t trip, please don’t trip.
Here’s a little picture of Tyra and I talking on stage. Please forgive the god-awful wannabe Photoshop teeth (and accidental lip) whitening I did in 2005. I didn’t have a steady hand back then. Eek!
After a few minutes of conversation on the stage, Tyra mentioned the non-surgical nose job and enthusiastically asked me if I wanted to try it.
Of course, I already knew about the procedure since I met Dr. Rivkin the previous day (and it was the whole purpose of being on the show), but I had to act surprised. (You know, television and all.)
“Yes, I’d love to!” I responded.
I may have looked bright-eyed and excited, but I was extremely nervous.
We walked backstage where Dr. Rivkin and his staff were waiting. Dr. Rivkin explained the procedure in a bit more detail before he began.
Here’s the concise version of the procedure taken from Dr. Rivkin’s website:
A topical numbing cream is applied to the top of the nose. Voluma or Radiesse (Dr. Rivkin’s usual fillers of choice for the nose) are injected to fill depressions, smooth out sharp angles, or change the angle of the tip of the nose, restoring symmetry and making the nose appear straighter and more attractive.
Since we had limited time due to being on television, the numbing cream, in my case, was a few ice cubes placed on my nose for about 45 seconds.
Then the injections started.
My eyes were watering like crazy and I couldn’t stop it no matter how hard I tried! I wasn’t on the verge of tears, I think it was the pressure around my eyes that caused the waterworks.
I’ll admit that I’m a sissy, but it hurt like hell. I’m sure this was exacerbated by not being able to use the topical numbing cream.
After Dr. Rivkin finished the injections, Tyra held up the mirror for the big reveal.
I couldn’t believe that my bump was barely noticeable anymore!
I wasn’t able to take photos while on set, but here’s a before and after image from Dr. Rivkin’s website that was similar to my result.
But instead of being over the moon like I’d imagined, seeing my nose without the pronounced bump actually made me sad.
My bump was barely visible now, and I found myself being a bit emotional. I was amazed at how this procedure truly changed my appearance by minimizing the appearance of the bump. But in that moment, I realized that it wasn’t just any bump. It was my bump. It wasn’t an ugly hindrance like I always thought. I finally saw it for what it really was: a unique characteristic of my face. I identified with that bump even though I thought I hated it. They say you don’t appreciate something until it’s gone, and in this case, that rang true.
Luckily the procedure wasn’t permanent and requires repeated filler injections to maintain the appearance. Since I didn’t go back for maintenance, the filler eventually wore off several months later and my bump made its reappearance.
It’s been 12 years since that episode and I can say that the bump in my nose I once hated has become a characteristic that I now embrace.
We find remedies to our problems in all sorts of places. I never knew I’d find mine on a national talk show, but I’m grateful for the experience.
This post was proofread by Grammarly
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